Anne is a seeker of the "silver lyming," which you will learn in this interview. Throughout her 7 year search for answers, she clung to hope no matter how difficult it became. She recently received a Lyme diagnosis, and is starting to feel better with proper treatment and lifestyle changes. When Anne started to improve, she knew she wanted to give back to others who were suffering and felt alone. She reached out to the PA Lyme Resource Network for help starting a local support group in her area, which is now up and running. In the short amount of time since her diagnosis, Anne is already making a big impact in the Lyme community. You can follow Anne and her personal journey on Twitter @AnneDes15. Tell us a little about who you are and what you do:
I am working on defining myself right now after recently being diagnosed with Lyme on 8.2.17. I fought it for 6-7 years before I finally got a medical diagnosis. This is an exciting time in my life, because I'm feeling so much better. I have a resurgence of energy and I'm finding things to do with myself since I don't have to use every ounce of energy to solely survive. I'm very grateful to have been able to at least work while I was so sick. I changed jobs about 18 months ago which is one of the best things to have happened to me. My stress level has been greatly reduced. I'm a sales person and work for Grafika in Sinking Spring, PA helping my customers, mostly manufacturers, with their paper board and pressure sensitive labels. It is a great fit for me. I have always been fascinated with manufacturing. I truly wake up everyday and say thank you God for letting me find this role. I am very competitive by nature and love being outside. I've recently embraced Bikram yoga, and just completed 30 days straight and am working on 60. I enjoy learning (especially about how to heal from Lyme disease and nutrition), meditation, sunshine, warm breezes, star lit nights, my doggie, and that I am still here. I thoroughly enjoy helping others and believe that is why I am still here. What is your Lyme story? How do you think you contracted Lyme and how long did it take you to get a diagnosis? I'm not sure how I got it...never saw a tick. No rash that I remember either. My mom was always vigilant of us when we were little so I am very familiar with how you get it and what to look for, but none of those signs came. I always thought my face would be paralyzed too as that was what my mom most freaked me out about. I use spray when I am outside so no idea how it happened. But I remember the fatigue hitting me hard. I was really scared and started complaining to doctors about the fatigue. I can remember days at my old job sitting at my desk thinking I could fall asleep if I just closed my eyes but never did. I wanted to crawl under my desk, especially in the afternoons, and never come out again. So began my journey with the doctors. I went first for sleep apnea testing because that runs in my family. I was negative but after the nap series test, they told me I had narcolepsy because I went into REM 3/5 times within 5 minutes, which was very unusual. I was not too concerned since I have always been a good sleeper and I knew that was not what was ailing me. I had allergy testing done, because it seemed to occur in the afternoons, so I thought maybe I was having trouble processing lunch. Nothing there. They then ran a bunch of different tests and my thyroid was slightly elevated which the specialist said was nothing and my white blood cell count was a little high but i was just getting over a cold so they said that was why. I went to my regular doc and he screened me and said I was healthy too. My dental hygienist asked me if I was super tired because the plaque had changed on my teeth. God love her, she was the only one that believed me and I burst into tears because someone finally was getting it. She said to get checked for Vitamin D deficiency, anemia, diabetes, and thyroid issues, which I did, again, and all looked fine. They kept telling me I was too stressed. I agreed with them that I was too stressed but it wasn't that bad. I live in a first world country, mostly with no guns and bombs going off, have a safe place to sleep, good food, family, friends, and a job. Not having those things, I could see maybe stress making me as tired as I was. I feel I am pretty good at reality checking myself when I am thinking things are bad so I just didn't believe it was simply stress. I went to have an HIV test done which was terrifying to me and the lady did not make eye contact when she called me to talk about my results so I again started crying because I thought that must be it. No, I am healthy. I started changing things in my life by this point. I also sought out a therapist. I gave up caffeine for a while, became a vegetarian for two years, changed my workout routine, changed my nutrition, changed my birth control, by the end I was brushing my teeth while standing on tin foil to help dissipate the electro magnetic frequencies that were radiating my brain. I put my router on a timer and slept with my phone in airplane mode. I was pretty much convinced toward the end that I had a brain tumor because I had been screened for everything else, in my mind, what else could it be? My symptoms changed at the end which forced me back to a doctor. I was tired of being told I was totally fine other than suffering from stress and depression, but asked for recommendations on Facebook for an eastern-minded physician because I was over the western side, and was referred to the place I attribute my life too. Oddly, the doctor who treated me used to come to the restaurant where I was a waitress while going back to college, and I had overheard her say one time that she was putting herself on antibiotics because she found a tick crawling on her. That must have been over 15 years ago but how weird. At the initial appointment, I told her everything I was experiencing and was asking to be tested for certain things, Lyme being one. She said she would order that and a few other things as a starting point. Less than 48 hours later, I had my positive Lyme diagnosis. I am so thankful for it. I tested positive for the type the CDC requires screening for and started on doxy. I took that for almost 4 months before changing over to strictly herbal and holistic treatment. When I look at the list of Lyme symptoms now, I had so many of them, but went to so many different doctors that none would've had enough info to put it together. Along the way I experienced hives, weird body temperatures, night sweats, insomnia, cracking in my neck, numbness in my face, memory issues, difficulty speaking without stuttering, fatigue, dizziness, hearing loss in my left ear, 2 heart fluttering episodes (that is the one that really made me go back to the doctor)l, difficulty making a screw go in a hole so I was losing physical abilities, I could no longer straighten my arms because of the pain in my elbows, and eventually had numbness in my whole body. But mostly all of that is gone now. Occasionally I have numbness in my face and a strange sensation in my ears, but that's about it anymore. It has definitely not been a smooth, straight line to where I am now, but I increasingly feel more and more normal. It's been at least 7 years since I can say I feel normal most days and that is very exciting. You run a support Lyme support group in Pennsylvania. Tell us a little about what it's been like: Since I have been feeling better, I looked into a support group for our community, and found that none existed. So I looked to surrounding communities to see what they were doing and came across PA Lyme Resource Network. I contacted them to see if they would help me get a group started and they have been my parent organization ever since. I'm very happy to have found a way to not have to recreate the wheel and have local support to assist me getting things going. I had my first meeting about two weeks ago. I was very happy with the outcome and look forward to continuing this group and helping to educate and support my community. We will meet monthly on the third Wednesday of every month from 6-8pm at Atonement Lutheran Church in Wyomissing, PA. This disease is very isolating and I do not ever want anyone to feel alone or crazy. Been there, done that so if I can help others avoid that, I will. What are your passions? I am super passionate about nutrition and helping others. I think of myself as a connector, I am really good at getting people in touch with things/people they look for. That is a good feeling. I am also very passionate about healing myself, learning, and expanding as a person. What is the one thing that you have found most helpful in treatment? My "tool belt": that is to say that I think all things together have been the most helpful. Every little thing I add in has its benefits. Hitting it from all sides. I currently use herbs based off of Unlocking Lyme by Bill Rawls, dry brushing, lemon water, intermittent fasting, detoxing, bikram yoga, meditation, control my diet to exclude gluten, dairy, sugar, pork (and I am working on going vegetarian), corn, and soy, I don't drink alcohol anymore (I don't even want it, which I didn't think would ever happen, haha), and stay on a pretty regular schedule to include at least 7.5- 8 hours of sleep a night. Oh, and I maintain hope. That got lost for a little while when I was still very sick. What do you want people to know about Lyme disease? You must be your own best advocate to have the best outcome. There is a lot of confusion and unknowns yet with this disease so you must find what works for you. If you could take away one symptom, which symptom would you take away and why? The fatigue although I don't have it like before. I hated that feeling so much I would think about killing myself some days. It was the worst thing I can imagine having to contend with. It just sucked the will to do anything right out of me. What are you most grateful for in your healing journey? People I meet who make this journey more pleasant. Do you have any advice for the newly diagnosed? One day at a time, do not overwhelm yourself. Again, there are so many ways to treat, so many unknowns, so many symptoms...do your research and find what works for you. No two Lymies are the same. Don't be afraid to ask questions and to stand up for yourself. Is there a person who inspires you in the Lyme community? Who and why? Ali Moresco. She is doing what she can to raise awareness and still struggles with lingering Lyme. She always seems to push through and keep leveling up. Very impressive attitude and being. Please share a mantra or quote that inspires you: "I expand in love, success, abundance, and health everyday, and I inspire those around me to do the same." I added the word "health," but the rest is from Gay Hendricks' The Big Leap. I also like "Everything works out for me." “...if you know your purpose, and you’re patient, the ball will eventually bounce your way.” - Chandler Harnish
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When you visit Jordan's blog Detox and Prosper you get a delightful mix of education and positivity. Detox is a tricky subject for people with Lyme, because we often have to try many things before we learn what is right for us. Jordan takes a complicated topic and makes it easy to digest. I especially like her post The Ultimate Guide to Detoxing for Beginners. Through this interview you will learn that Jordan finds strength in religion and her family. She's definitely someone in the Lyme community you will want to follow. Tell us a little about your blog and who you are:
My name is Jordan, and I'm a wife and homeschooling mama to 3 young children ages 6 and under. We live way out in the country, raise chickens, grow a garden, and enjoy learning homesteading and self-sustaining type skills. I've been a professional copywriter for over 6 years writing sales pages, emails and doing content marketing for various ecommerce companies. I started my blog, Detox and Prosper, after learning how effective detoxing was and how toxins are such a hindrance to our healing. The blog focuses more on detoxing as a lifestyle--not just a one-time, 7-day juice cleanse. We talk about removing toxins in every part of your life from your food and your body to your cleaning products and environment. What is your Lyme story? How do you think you contracted Lyme and how long did it take you to get a diagnosis? I was just diagnosed with Lyme in the summer of 2017, but after more extensive testing and a look at my medical history, my doctor believes I've had it 15+ years. Perhaps ever since I was about 6 or 7 when I had unexplained joint pain, fever and rash (though not the bull's eye kind). Throughout my childhood and teen years, I dealt with things like a very rare type of headache, heart palpitations and random rashes at my joints. I believe it was lying dormant that whole time, and whenever I got sick or was under a lot of stress, it would flare up in the form of those things mentioned above. My health began rapidly declining after the birth of my second child and the death of my best friend around the same time. I had what I thought was postpartum depression and just post-pregnancy complications. Instead of recovering though, I slowly got worse and worse. Symptoms included debilitating fatigue, brain fog, confusion, nausea, anxiety, memory loss, random itchy rash at joints, eczema, slurred speech/stuttering and more. I never went to the doctor until June 2017 when I was nauseous for 2 weeks straight. She tested me for Lyme, and it came back positive. I've since transferred care to a Lyme literate holistic nutritionist where we found I also had Epstein Barr Virus and heavy metal toxicity. What are your passions? That's kind of a hard question at this point in life. Because of Lyme, I've lost many of the passionate hobbies I once had due to them being too time consuming, too hard physically, or requiring too much mental stamina. With that said, I'm still passionate about serving the Lord and my family. I'm also passionate about helping women, even if that has to happen through a computer screen. I started the blog to help other tired mamas find relief from their pain as naturally as possible and encouragement in the way. How have your family and friends reacted to your illness? The family members closest to me (husband, mom, grandmother, etc) have truly stepped up and become an invaluable support system. I don't know what I'd do without them. They're patient, understanding, giving and always ready to step in to babysit and care for me when needed. On the other hand, some family members and friends just don't "get it" as those of us with Lyme understand all too well. Being a chronic, invisible disease, it's easy for others to think I should be better by now, or if I have a "good" day, they think I'm healed and all is well. At first that sort of misunderstanding was disheartening, but now I just take a step back, realize their good intentions, and choose to focus instead on the heart behind the matter. What is the one thing that you have found most helpful in treatment? Detox! I started seeing improvement when I implemented things like activated charcoal, clay and infrared sauna into my weekly regimen. If your body is overloaded with toxins, it doesn't matter how many supplements or medicines you take, they simply won't be as effective. If you could take away one symptom, which symptom would you take away and why? My cognitive issues because it's scary feeling like you're losing your mind. What are you most grateful for in your healing journey? God's Word. It’s how He chose to speak to us, and one word from the Lord through His written word is more effective in lifting my mood and giving me strength for tomorrow than any supplement I may take. What changes do you still feel you need to make in order to heal? I need to be more consistent. Infrared sauna sessions are so effective, but I often forget to do them or choose to do something else with my time. Do you have a role model in the Lyme community? Who and why? Tricia at Abounding in Hope with Lyme. The encouragement she shares and hope she instills through this journey is priceless. Besides having Lyme herself, her entire family (4 kids) were also diagnosed, and she's made it through it all with her sanity and grace intact--that right there is inspirational. Please share a mantra or quote that inspires you: This is just a season, and it too shall pass. It may not be so much inspirational, but it pushes me to keep moving forward, knowing that this season won't last forever. You can find Jordan here: Blog: Detox and Prosper Pinterest: @detoxandprosper Twitter: @detoxandprosper "True greatness consists in being great in little things." - Samuel Johnson When I heard Jared Iversen's Interview on the Lyme Ninja Radio podcast, I knew I had to reach out to him. Our views on health and healing are similar and I admire his positive outlook and desire to share his thoughts with others. I learned a lot from Jared in that interview, so I wanted to share his ideas with my readers. I would also suggest you listen to the podcast interview. Jared educated himself on the autonomic nervous system and its impact on our healing. He encourages techniques like EFT/tapping, EMDR (Eye Movement Desensitizing and Reprocessing), and meditation to take us out of 'fight-or-flight' and into 'rest-and-digest' where all healing happens. Jared is wise beyond his years and if you are ready to listen, he has some very important things to say. Tell us a little about who you are and what you do:
I am a manifestation of consciousness experiencing its current incarnation in the form of a fellow named Jared. I am also a screenwriter living in Brooklyn with my girlfriend (check out her blog/Instagram for yummy allergen and Lyme-friendly recipes--@the_bananadiaries) and two adorable (4-month-old) kitties, all of whom bring a tremendous amount of joy to my life. And, in case you couldn't tell from my super pretentious opening line, I am a spiritual seeker, and love exploring the nature of reality, consciousness, and why it is we're all here. What is your Lyme story? How do you think you contracted Lyme and how long did it take you to get a diagnosis? I was bitten by a tick in the summer of 2008 and one month later began my freshman year of college. In October, I was struck with flu-like symptoms that only continued to worsen over the following months. From there, it was a very long road to diagnosis--several years and dozens upon dozens of doctors, specialists, and healers of all kinds. They all told me some combination of the following--all of your tests are normal, you are absolutely fine, it's all in your head--and they simply had no idea how to help me. For a long time, I was very angry and self-righteous about the way the medical system treated me, but, over time, I have come to let go of that animosity because it just felt better to forgive. Upon receiving an accurate diagnosis, I began a heavy regimen of antibiotics, but, when I failed to improve, the traditional medical world didn't know what else to do for me. I spent several years desperately experimenting with all kinds of healing modalities and supplements, floundering from one supposed "magic bullet" to the next, and just barely functioning, both physically and mentally. After repeatedly failing to find relief, I finally hit a breaking point--I was forced to take time off from college, was essentially bedridden for many months, and felt completely hopeless, depressed, and, at times, suicidal. This was a very dark period, and I think it's important to acknowledge that; this illness has a way of sucking you in to a very dark place where it seems impossible to even imagination a future without pain and suffering and despair. But if you are struggling, just know that there are so many ways to heal. And as hard as it might be to believe that right now, just know that it is possible, and some part of you, deep down in your soul, knows how to get there. Personally, I found significant improvement in my symptoms when I cleaned up my diet and adopted a regular yoga practice. But things truly began to turn around when I expanded my focus from just the physical aspects of the illness to the emotional and spiritual components as well. The body's healing mechanisms reside in the autonomic nervous system, which is largely modulated by the subconscious mind, and can often be blocked by patterns of thought and emotion below our conscious awareness. For this reason, I found that addressing my limiting subconscious beliefs and emotional traumas was a crucial aspect of the healing process. As children, our brainwave pattern mostly rests in the range associated with the hypnotic state, which means we're incredibly suggestible to the input we receive, basically absorbing everything we see and hear without judgment or analysis. This information is then lodged in our brain and encoded as beliefs, shaping the way we see and process the world. If and when we become aware that we may have beliefs that are sabotaging our conscious desires (to be healthy, wealthy, etc), it can be very difficult to recognize and reprogram them, because they often exist at a knowing or feeling level, rather than an intellectual, rational, or language level. So you can think 'I am healthy' or 'I am healing' all day long, but if your subconscious mind doesn't actually believe that, then it’s really only drawing attention to your lack of health, and perpetuating that state. This is why affirmations and positive thinking platitudes can often just be like slapping wallpaper on a moldy wall. But through techniques like hypnosis, EFT, EMDR, NLP, kundalini yoga, and meditation*, which tap into the subconscious mind, we can shift these beliefs and install new ones that are more in alignment with our conscious desires. For me, growing up with a parent with OCD and anxiety, I was programmed to see the world as a dangerous place, to see my body as weak, and to live with a pervasive sense of fear; none of this was ever explicitly said, but it was simply how I came to view the world based on the environment in which I was raised (which happened to be a very happy, supportive, and loving one). The emotional distress we endure as a result of our subconscious beliefs, modern lifestyles, and an extended period of illness, is very traumatic on the autonomic nervous system, and our bodies become stuck in a perpetual state of 'fight-or-flight,' which is antithetical to our 'rest-and-digest' state where healing occurs, so it is extremely helpful to use modalities that shift the nervous system out of distress, and allow the body's natural healing mechanisms to take hold. When I used techniques such as hypnosis, EFT/tapping, and meditation to reprogram my autonomic nervous system from a constant state of fear, anxiety, and stress into one of relaxation, safety, and repair, my health, and overall outlook on life, improved dramatically. I also began using a Rife machine, which I have found to be an incredibly powerful tool. When I discovered the Rife technology, it just resonated with me and felt like the most appropriate and effective tool to address the physical illness--the actual bacteria, viruses, etc.--so I trusted my intuition, and it has proven to be the most impactful modality I've found in shifting my physical symptoms. I would very much recommend researching this tool and, if it resonates with you, integrating it into your healing repertoire. *A note on meditation: This has become a very trendy topic as of late, but I find that there is a lot of anxiety and stress surrounding the practice, and people often feel as though they don't know how to do it properly. Compound this with the fact that many people working through Lyme disease are in constant pain, sitting still can seem like an impossible task. I know for me, my body was so permanently throttled into 'fight-or-flight' that no matter how statuesque I remained, I never felt completely still. Working with some of the subconscious modalities to help calm the autonomic nervous system alleviated much of this restlessness and unease. But for me, meditation is not about sitting still or quieting your mind. I would define meditation as intentionally cultivating positive emotions through thought alone. I think the 'through thought alone' is the critical part, for we often rely on external stimuli, like a slice of cake or the new season of Stranger Things, to generate positive emotions within us, but this activates our dopamine receptors, which become desensitized over time and come to need more and more stimulation to reach the same level of pleasure (the hedonic treadmill). However, when we generate the feelings internally, through our thoughts, we release a whole slew of yummy chemicals, like oxytocin, which have a direct effect on our immune system. So, close your eyes. Center your awareness into your heart center, in the middle of your chest. And call to mind something that you love--a person, a place, a pet, a sweet potato--anything that makes you feel radiant, that gives you that sensation of lightness, that plasters a big, goofy smile on your face. Just sit with that feeling and enjoy it for as long as you can. And when thoughts pop up, follow them if you wish. There is no need to fight them off. And when you're ready, come back to that feeling. That joy and gratitude and wholeness. That love. And relish it for as long as you wish. 10 seconds. 10 minutes. 10 hours. It doesn't matter. You are meditating. You are reprogramming your autonomic nervous system. You are healing. To me, that's all meditation is. Cultivating love. What are your passions? One of my biggest passions is storytelling, particularly through the medium of film. Stories are one of the most ancient and powerful means of making sense of the human experience and of finding meaning in our world. I love the ways in which stories can empower, inspire, and transform, and I strive to elicit these feelings through my work. I also love food (both cooking and eating), music, comedy, and, most of all, learning, thinking, and talking about the nature of reality and all things metaphysical. I think the unifying theme between all of these interests is that they are ways of cultivating connection, compassion, understanding, and love, and that is my greatest passion. Basically, anything that breaks down the artificial barriers we erect as a result of our fear, that brings us closer together, that reminds us we are all inexorably intertwined and connected in a fundamental way is, as they say, my jam. What do you want people to know about Lyme disease? I feel that Lyme disease, and all illness for that matter, is a spiritual affliction, and the physical symptoms we experience are a manifestation of emotional and energetic blockages within our subconscious mind, being, and soul. That is not to say that it is "all in your head," which is something that I heard quite often when I was searching for answers, but rather that what's in our head (both consciously and subconsciously) and our hearts (emotionally and energetically) causes biological and chemical changes in the body, which creates disease. Thoughts trigger electrical impulses in the brain, which forms neuro-peptides, which creates a cascade of hormones and chemicals, which signals genes, which creates proteins, which can either build cells and up-regulate the immune system or create inflammation and dysfunction. The field of medicine that studies the biological and chemical chain of causality arising from our thoughts is known as psychoneuroimmunology, which is really just a fancy way of saying that our thoughts have a tangible effect on our brain and body. This isn’t merely an ontological discussion; it's a very practical one. When you recognize the role that your thoughts and emotions play in disease, and in healing, you can reclaim your power. You begin to understand that you needn't rely on something outside of yourself to heal you because your disease is not the result of something outside of yourself; all disease and all healing comes from within. I don't think that illness is something that we must combat. And I don't think it's something that we can fully overcome with external interventions. As a society, we've been so conditioned to give our power to things outside of ourselves, seeking fulfillment through consumerism or addiction, but fulfillment cannot come from without; it must come from within. And I think the same is true of healing. Healing comes from understanding how to integrate the lessons the illness is there to reveal to you, which only happens through turning inward; then, the body naturally comes into balance and the illness falls away. That does not mean you can't use medical interventions of all kinds to assist in this healing, but these interventions are only beneficial when they help you tap into your body's own innate healing power. There is a fundamental intelligence within every cell of your body that not only knows how to operate optimally, but that has an innate desire to do just that; the body contains an intelligence, a consciousness, far beyond the intellect of our own minds, and when we can align our own thoughts, feelings and emotions with that benevolent force, we unlock a healing capacity that's far more powerful than any pill or procedure. I believe the rapidly growing incidence of Lyme disease and other chronic illnesses serve as a 'canary in the coal mine,' both on the micro and on the macro level. They are here to show us that we have become misaligned with the fundamental drive of the body and of the Universe, which is to evolve towards a greater state of wholeness and order, or what we might describe as Love. When we operate from a state of fear, competition, and separation, both as individuals and as a society, our systems begin to break down—whether that be our digestive or immune system, or our political or economic system. On the personal level, the breakdown of these systems causes physical symptoms, which are then diagnosed and labeled as a disease, but the disease is just a symptom of the true affliction, which is being a servant of fear. Contrary to what I believed for a long time, I no longer consider Lyme disease as something that is here to punish me or make me miserable; I see it as a blessing, as a wise teacher, as my body's way of telling me that I was not living in alignment with my true self. I would challenge you to shift your mindset out of victimhood, and to find the wisdom and the lessons that you can derive from this experience. What can it teach you? There have been a number of psychological studies demonstrating that people who are able to derive meaning and purpose from traumatic events heal faster and have fewer repercussions over the long term. So if you can recognize your illness as a symptom of something greater and find the personal significance of your suffering, you will have an easier path to recovery. That significance will be different for everyone. It's a uniquely personal journey. And one that does not evolve in a straight line. But follow your intuition and move in the direction of love, and suddenly your Lyme will no longer seem like an 'illness,' but rather a blessing helping you evolve towards your best self. In summary, I want people to know that Lyme disease can be a wonderful gift, something you wouldn't even dream of going back in time and avoiding, because it gives you the opportunity to uncover the areas in your life where you are choosing fear, and to learn how to choose love instead. What is the one thing that you have found most helpful in treatment? Gratitude. Plain and simple. For so long I was focused on everything that had been taken away from me, feeling so much anger and pity and resentment about all the things that I couldn't do or have or be. But ever since I have shifted my focus and attention to the many wonderful things already in my life, and take the time to express gratitude for them, I just enjoy life more, regardless of how I feel physically or what my current circumstances are. The Rife technology and meditation have been equally transformative as well. What are you most grateful for in your healing journey? All the places it has taken me. This journey has sent me far and wide searching for relief, and it's revealed to me an endless stream of mind-blowing information, guided me to a number of life-changing practices, and led me to so many beautiful people. But most of all, it has taken me deeper into myself. It has shown me my own inner power. A power that is derived from my connection to the force that beats our hearts, the intelligence that creates life, and the energy that connects the entire Universe—there are many names for it, and my favorite is Love. I am also immensely grateful for all of the people whose love and support sustained me in my lowest moments, especially my family, my girlfriend, my friends, and the healers who helped awaken my belief in the possibility of healing. Even though I often ignored their words of hope and encouragement, writing them off as wishful thinking, I don't think I would have been able to pull myself out of the spiral without knowing that there were so many people rooting for me, wanting nothing more than for me to feel better, and showering me with love every step of the way. Whether or not your closest companions show you this level of support (I know many often don't believe their loved ones are sick, or choose to downplay their suffering because it is just too painful to watch), just know that you are not alone. You are surrounded by a community of people that want you to get better. And by a loving energy that is doing everything in its power to restore you to your natural state of health. If you need a reminder of this, or have a desire to discuss any of the topics mentioned here, please feel free to contact me at [email protected]. What changes do you still feel you need to make in order to heal? Finding ways every single day to release fear and cultivate love. Do you have a role model in the Lyme community? Who and why? For a long time, I was myopically focused on the health and wellness world, constantly devouring podcasts and articles about the best diet or best supplement or best exercise to combat Lyme disease. I surrounded myself with this information and became obsessed with defeating my illness, which only further solidified my identification with it. The more information I consumed about overcoming illness, the more I continued to pave the pathways in my brain associated with my state of dis-ease, and the more attached I became to my identity as a ‘sick person,’ which and only continued to reinforce that reality. All of that is a long way of saying that, although I found many wonderful people spreading messages of hope and empowerment within the Lyme community (such as this very blog), I personally found that my whole perspective shifted when I broadened the scope of information that I consumed to include teachings outside the Lyme community and wellness world, from quantum physics to spiritual philosophies, and focused less on defeating illness and more on cultivating health, happiness, and wholeness. But if I had to recommend one teacher, a role model that I deeply admire, it would be Dr. Joe Dispenza. He so eloquently unites ancient spiritual and mystic teachings with the most modern, cutting-edge scientific theories in a clear, entertaining, and, most importantly, practical way. He gives you the tools to actually implement these ideas into your daily life and to truly bring about change. I already sound like an infomercial, so I would just direct you to his book You Are the Placebo, which is a fantastic place to start. I also think the work of Dr. Kelly Turner deserves an honorable mention. She studied cases of radical remission from cancer (recovery after terminal diagnosis) and found nine common principles among those that improved. Her book is called Radical Remission. The 9 Principles: 1. Radically changing your diet. 2. Taking control of your health. 3. Following your intuition. 4. Using herbs and supplements. 5. Releasing suppressed emotions. 6. Increasing positive emotions. 7. Embracing social support. 8. Deepening your spiritual connection. 9. Having strong reasons for living. Please share a mantra or quote that inspires you: Well, you can probably tell I have a propensity toward verbosity, and this will be no different… "A man found a cocoon of a butterfly. One day a small opening appeared. He sat and watched the butterfly for several hours as it struggled to force its body through that little hole. Then it seemed to stop making any progress. It appeared as if it had gotten as far as it could, and it could go no further. So the man decided to help the butterfly. He took a pair of scissors and snipped off the remaining bit of the cocoon. The butterfly then emerged easily. But it had a swollen body and small, shriveled wings. The man continued to watch the butterfly because he expected that, at any moment, the wings would enlarge and expand to be able to support the body, which would contract in time. Neither happened! In fact, the butterfly spent the rest of its life crawling around with a swollen body and shriveled wings. It never was able to fly. What the man, in his kindness and haste, did not understand was that the restricting cocoon and the struggle required for the butterfly to get through the tiny opening were Nature"s way of forcing fluid from the body of the butterfly into its wings so that it would be ready for flight once it achieved its freedom from the cocoon." - Dr. Kelly Brogan, relaying a story told by Joseph Aldo And because I also have an aversion to picking just one thing… "Do not feel lonely; the entire universe is inside you." - Rumi "And above all, watch with glittering eyes the whole world around you, because the greatest secrets are always hidden in the most unlikely places." - Roald Dahl Alexandra Moresco (pictured, right) is a champion for people with Lyme. After she was diagnosed, she made it her mission to help others and raise awareness of Lyme disease. This past summer she partnered with the Global Lyme Alliance to put on even called the SubLyme Soiree to Chicago where she lives. The event featured gluten and dairy-free food and drinks from some of the top chefs in Chicago and raised over $60,000 for research. Now she's partnering with GLA again by starting the In the Lymelight podcast with her best friend Sarah Aiken (pictured, left). In this interview you will learn Alex's Lyme story and all about a live taping of In the Lymelight that is happening at Zanies Chicago. I will definitely be there cheering her on and I hope you will join me if you live in the Chicagoland area. What is your Lyme story? How do you think you contracted Lyme, how long did it take you to get a diagnosis, and where are you in your treatment?
My Lyme story is a little bit convoluted--just like everyone else's. About two years ago, I got incredibly sick and had the "flu" for months. Shocker—I am not a woodsy person but had just come back from Northern Michigan for the first time and had no idea that I should be checking for ticks. I never saw a rash or a bulls-eye. I got a little bit better and brushed it aside. Later that year, the space around my thyroid swelled up and never went down. It hurt and was a lump the size of half a golf ball. I was misdiagnosed with thyroid cancer and it took eight specialists to finally decide that I did not have cancer and that it was "all in my head." I had asked my primary care doctor to test me for Lyme disease and she refused: saying that Lyme disease does not exist and any doctor that tests you is a "charlatan." I pushed forward and it became dire for me to get answers when I started losing my memory last September and couldn't get out of bed. I found a doctor that had treated me when I was little and had Mycoplasma pneumonia--he had been the only person that could help me. I found him at The Raby Institute at Northwestern. We weren't sure what was wrong for the first few months--eventually the Lyme disease question popped back up and he tested me and sure enough it didn’t come back as a CDC positive, but enough bars came back positive to raise some red flags. I started seeing a team of doctors in Wisconsin that did some intensive testing and we found Lyme, babesia and bartonella amongst a few other things. I had a heart murmur which means the Lyme had started moving into my heart which I find terrifying but thankfully we have corrected that. I think that goes to show you how many parts of the body Lyme can cause damage and that we should always take a Lyme disease diagnosis seriously. Personally, I suffer from severe memory loss, joint pain, muscle soreness, chronic fatigue among many other symptoms. Personally, I am on a mix of antibiotics and homeopathic medications. I recently began IV antibiotics. I go for cupping and lymphatic drainage once a week and cannot say enough good things and what those two therapies have done for me! Overall, I have seen quite a bit of improvement but still have a long way to go. I try to take it one day at a time. If people are interested, they can see part of my battle with Lyme on the show I am on that just came out, PR Girl. You have started a podcast called In the Lymelight in partnership with the Global Lyme Alliance. Why did you want to do a podcast and what will you be discussing on the show? When I got diagnosed with Lyme disease, I found the amount of information online terrifying and overwhelming. While I wasn't in the mental space at the time, I knew that there had to be a better way for people to get information on our illness. After getting over the mental hurdle (I am still not quite over it) of accepting that yes I am sick and need to accept that, I decided that the best place to channel my energy was trying to help others. I knew that I wanted to create a safe space for Lymies to stay up to date on information without being overwhelmed, but wasn't sure what the best way to do that was. I finally settled on a podcast because I know that many with Lyme cannot focus on reading, etc., and dragged my best friend Sarah Aiken into it. Our goal is to yes, discuss the difficult topics, but also to have some lighter episodes like interviews with health influencers and all-natural skincare experts. I do a lot of work with Global Lyme Alliance and love what they stand for and that they are a space for factual information. Having In The Lymelight on their platform just made sense. While our introductory episode was just released, we also chatted with Amanda Smith of Amanda’s Kitchen, gut health expert Sarah Greenfield and famed comedian Chris Jones on using comedy to overcome depression. "Alex and I really wanted to put something out there where people affected by Lyme Disease including friends and family could find information that isn't overwhelming and is easy to understand…I know that I could have used this when Alex was first diagnosed." - Sarah Aiken, co-host of In The Lymelight. There is a live taping of the podcast coming up in Chicago, can you tell us about it? I could talk about our upcoming live podcast for hours—I am so excited! One of my goals is to keep putting together smaller events related to Lyme disease and GLA throughout the year so Lymies have a space to get together and also use these to build awareness of our invisible illness. Sarah and I are hosting our very first live podcast at Zanies in Chicago on November 30th, 2017 from 6-8pm. We really aim to bring knowledge and humor to a somber topic so Zanies was the perfect venue fit. Our guest that night is famed comedian and hypnotist Chris Jones. A Chicago native and previous Zanies performer, Chris took the entertainment world by storm after he hypnotized notorious germaphobe Howie Mandel into shaking hands on America’s Got Talent and continues to wow with appearances on Windy City Live, NBC and Steve Harvey. We will be discussing how to use comedy to overcome depression: something most of us with Lyme suffer from. It will be a great night full of honest conversation and hopefully some laughs! How have your friends and family reacted to your illness? I am truly so blessed to have such an amazing support system. My family is so supportive and understanding and knows that this will be a long road to remission. They make me laugh when I need to laugh and let me cry when I need to cry. With my friends it was a hurdle. I think that when you are 24 and sick the way we are sick with Lyme disease, other 24 year olds do not immediately understand what you are going through. At first it was a lot of "I don’t understand why you can't just go out for dinner with us" etc. I think that it is a real struggle being so sick and also losing friends along the way when really your friends should be rallying around you: but if this is happening to you, know that you are not alone and we WILL get through this! Thankfully I do have a few good friends who are so kind and understanding and they have become my best friends. What do you want people to know about Lyme disease? In general I would love for people to simply be aware of Lyme disease and know the symptoms to look out for if they are feeling off. I would also like for people to know just how severe of an illness Lyme disease is. In other countries, they treat Lyme the way they treat cancer. Those of us with Lyme are constantly going through something so our day to day lives aren't ever "normal." Bottom line: chronically ill or not, everyone is going through their own personal battles so always try to be kind to everyone you meet. What are you most grateful for in your healing journey? I am so grateful to my family for being the best support system. I know that when one person is ill it takes a toll on everyone around them. I am also just so grateful that I can get the kind of treatment I am. I always say that I am one of the lucky ones because my family can afford treatment, which is unacceptable: everyone should have access to a doctor that can treat them. I am making it my mission to help those with voices that aren't being heard and to support GLA to help find a cure. Please share a mantra or quote that inspires you: Growing up, my mom always said, "say little, do much" and has a plaque that hangs in our kitchen with that saying. It has always inspired me to not just talk about what I want to do, but actually get out there and do it. Find episodes of In the Lymelight here. Connect with Alexandra on Instagram: @alitmoresco "A positive thinker sees the invisible, feels the intangible, & achieves the impossible." - Unknown Karen Gloyer is on a mission to educate children and families about Lyme disease. She's written a children's book called, Nick, the No Good, Icky Tick. To spread her message across the country, Karen needs our help. She launched and Indiegogo campaign that runs through August 20th, 2017. This book is very personal for Karen, because she has Lyme disease, and hopes to get her book to as many children as possible. With the funds from the Indiegogo campaign, Karen will donate books to hospitals, doctor's offices, and schools. What is your Lyme story? How do you think you contracted Lyme and how long did it take you to get a diagnosis?
My doctors think that I contracted Lyme disease in 1999 while living in Fairfield, Connecticut and working for the Audubon Society. I used to hike a lot and remember getting bitten and then falling ill in the fall of 1999. I was not diagnosed with Lyme, Babesia, and Bartonella until spring of 2013. I was unable to read or write by that time because the Lyme disease had crossed the blood/brain barrier. You wrote a children's book called Nick, the No Good, Icky Tick. What is the book about? Abby and her four-footed friend Chowser discover the wild, wild woods and all of its inhabitants. Along their journey, they encounter a no good, icky tick named Nick. This children's book was developed as an educational tool to teach children and parents about Lyme disease, from how the disease is transmitted by no good, icky ticks like Nick, to identifying and treating the disease. Follow along with Abby and Chowser as they explore the wild, wild woods in this playful and colorfully illustrated tale, and make sure you always do a tick check once you have been outside. You don’t want a visit from Nick, the No Good, Icky Tick! What made you want to write the book? When I lost my ability to read and write, I decided that I wanted to help others to not have to go through the same experience I went through. I had a dream about writing a children’s book, and that dream evolved into Nick, the No Good, Icky Tick. You've launched an Indigogo campaign for the book. Tell us about it: I decided to launch a social media fundraising campaign in an effort to bring Nick, the No Good, Icky Tick to more of a national level. This campaign allows people to donate to the campaign and help me donate books to hospitals, schools, and doctors’ offices. What do you wish people knew about Lyme disease? I wish that people knew that Lyme disease can be a very lonely and isolating disease. There is no cure for chronic Lyme disease, and one never knows when the disease will rear its ugly head again once you are in remission. Lyme also can affect most any part of the body, including the brain. Do you have any advice for the newly diagnosed? I would recommend that no matter what, they continue to have hope. It is not easy with this disease, but doctors are beginning to get better at helping patients, and the Lyme community is pushing harder for more insurance coverage and better treatment. I would also recommend joining a Lyme support group either online or in person. It helps normalize what you are going through and helps you feel like you are not alone. Is there a person who inspires you in the Lyme community? My Lyme doctor, Dr. Kenneth Singleton, inspires me. He was a physician who also had Lyme disease, and now his practice is dedicated to helping others with Lyme disease. He believed in me and my book so much that he wrote the Afterword in my book. He always helps me feel better physically and spiritually, Please share a mantra or quote that inspires you: Mine is actually a song, "I Will Survive" from the 1970s. "The secret to happiness is: Find something more important than you are and dedicate your life to it." - Dan Dennett Ellen Hobgood turns her suffering into art. She's the owner of Ellen Hobgood Gallery in Herber Springs, Arkansas, where she paints and teaches others to paint. You can learn more about Ellen and her gallery by following her on Instagram, and Twitter. Ellen is known for her paintings of Santa Claus, which you will see later in the interview. Her business endeavors are all the more impressive once you hear her Lyme story. This is a picture of Ellen and her fellow artist and Lyme fighter, Angela Turney. Ellen hopes that sharing her struggle will help others. What is your Lyme story? How do you think you contracted Lyme and how long did it take you to get a diagnosis?
I keep up with it by the date of the Oklahoma City bombing. I was bitten the day before. I woke up with a low grade fever and headache. I thought had the flu. I was bitten on side road in Herber Springs, Arkansas. The road was industrial park road. I was taking a short walk on my lunch break. So the tick was on me less then a hour. I found on my left leg. It was like no other bite I have ever experienced. It felt like a set of pliers had cut into my skin. I have lived in Arkansas all my life. I hadn't ever been bitten like this before. I went to the doctor that was local. He looked at it said tick borne illness. No tests were run. I assumed all these years it was due to me not having health insurance. I had a preexisting condition of a pituitary tumor. My husband was in between jobs and I lost my healthcare. After all these years I learned that even if I had healthcare I would still have been denied. I took 1500mg of Doxycycline twice a day for 13 days. I was assured that was enough. A year to the date I was bitten every joint in my body went stiff. I was reassured that it wasn't connected to the tick bite. Dial it forward to 2010. UAMS did Elisa test on me came back negative. ANA titres were elevated. But I didn't have Lupus or MS. My nurse practitioner denied me additional test for 7 years. I didn't find this out until I pulled my medical results from the hospital in 2016. I was so frustrated to learn that I had been denied for 6 years. I had a stressful time between 2008 and 2010. I'm a gallery owner. It was rough running a business and keeping my health in check. Doctors had linked it to stress not Lyme Disease. I'd seen so many doctors by this point, 11 to be exact. Doctors making me feel like it was in my head. By now Fibromyalgia, stress fractures in both feet, scohlis in my right hip, joint replacement in my right hip, needing 3 more joint replacements, neuropathy in both feet now in my hands, sight declining along with my grip, shortness in breath, constant yeast issues, and being tired all the time. At one time I was on 9 pharmaceutical medications. I know that other folks have been on more than that. It completely affected my ability to function. I gradually over a years time weaned myself off the all the meds and switched over to holistic supplements. My weight had become a huge issue too. I got up to a whopping 295.5 pounds in 2013. I joined our local TOPS chapter in my attempt to lose weight. What was your lowest point? Exactly a year ago June 2016. I was having shortness of breath and couldn't lift my arm to paint. I convinced my nurse practitioner to send me to a neurologist at Baptist Medical. He did a full tick panel on me. After I begged him to test me. He tested me it came back Rocky Mountain Spotted Fever, R.Corrni, R.Arkri, Echrolis Chafniss, Rickistial. Two of these infections don't even exist in United States. Is there a person who inspires you in the Lyme community? Me and fellow artist Angela Turney were diagnosed same week. We had both searched for answers all these years. I found a doctor here in Arkansas he just moved here one visit was all it took. I have been going ever since last October 2016. I have eliminated now 66 pounds to date. I'm starting to feel hope again. Angela and I go every two weeks to see the doctor go over supplements and our diets. It is amazing to find someone that can help and that we have a support system in the two of us. What is the one thing that you have found most helpful in treatment? I think there are no coincidences in life. God has guided every step of the way. I'm not in remission yet, I'm just beginning my journey to get healthy and understand myself. Maybe I can help others by sharing my journey. And my art sharing is an amazing therapy. Maybe Angela and I can help others through our art. This is what artists and friends do. Thank you for letting me share my journey. "What you get by achieving your goals is not as important as what you become by achieving your goals." - Zig Ziglar During the summer I like to take things a little slower, which means curling up with a good book. The number of books I want to read is ever expanding and growing, and I've added these books to my reading list. This list is a snapshot of some of the books I can't wait to read this summer. There are so many great books related to chronic illness, or better yet, wellness, that it was hard to narrow it down to ten. Chronic Illness Summer Reading List 2017: 1. You Are the Universe: Discovering Your Cosmic Self and Why it Matters by Deepak Chopra, MD and Menas Kafatos, PhD In the most recent offering from the alternative medicine guru, Deepak Chopra teams up with a physicist to explore our role in creating the universe. Understanding the science behind co-creation can be powerful to chronic illness patients who often feel powerless. Plus, the dark blue and gold cover is simply beautiful. 2. Life is Your Best Medicine: A Woman's Guide to Health, Healing, and Wholenss at Any Age by Tieraona Low Dog, MD This book was recommended to me by a healer, and I can't wait to dive into it. Tieraona Low Dog has a positive message about health and healing that will benefit anyone with a chronic illness. 3. No Mud, No Lotus: The Art of Transforming Suffering by Thich Nhat Hahn No mud, no lotus has been my battle cry since the beginning of my chronic illness journey. I even got a lotus tattoo to signify it, but admittedly I haven't yet read this book. The book is about how we run away from suffering, when instead we should be facing it and allowing it to transform out lives. 4. Medical Medium: Secrets Behind Chronic and Mystery Illness and How to Finally Heal by Anthony William A friend of mine, April Moor, who writes the blog Happy Healin' Vegan, talked about how this book changed her life and it has been on my "to read" list ever since. 5. Nourish, Heal, Thrive: A Comprehensive and Holistic Approach to Living with Lyme Disease by Rika Keck This book was sent to me by the author and I have been enjoying both her writing style and the incredible detail of her healing strategies. Her words are encouraging and loving, which we all need. 6. The Highly Sensitive Person: How to Thrive When the World Overwhelms You by Elaine N. Aron Many people with chronic illnesses are also highly sensitive people. This book provides some insight on how to cope when life is a little more intense for you than most. 7. Carry On, Warrior: The Power of Embracing Your Messy, Beautiful Life by Glennon Doyle Melton I just finished Love Warrior by Glennon Doyle Melton about her marriage struggles. In it she briefly opens up about her struggle with Lyme disease. All people with chronic illness are warriors and this collection of essays touches on how to keep going when life gets you down. 8. How to Be Sick: A Buddhist-Inspired Guide for the Chronically Ill and Their Caregivers by Sylvia Boorstein Buddhist principles of mindfulness have guided my healing journey, so when I saw this book I knew I had to read it. The challenge of how to live well when sick is a difficult one, and I hope this book provides some thoughtful insights on the topic. 9. The Autoimmune Wellness Handbook: A DIY Guide to Living Well with Chronic Illness by Mickey Tresscott, NFP and Angie Alt, NTC, CHC I first became acquainted with Mickey Tresscot and Angie Alt form their website about the autoimmune protocol diet. This is their most recent offering and I can't wait to dive in. 10. Anything is Possible by Elizabeth Strout I read Elizabeth Strout's Pulitzer Prize winning novel, Olive Kitteridge, and loved how it transformed me to a place and life completely different from my own. There are so many books about healing we sometimes forget to take a break from it all and get lost in a good novel. Have you read any of these books? What did you think? What's on your summer reading list? "We read to know we're not alone." - William Nicholson Moven-May is a writer from Scotland. She was a teenager when she was diagnosed with Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, only to find out later it was actually Lyme disease. Morven-May has written a novel about Lyme based on her experience. She hopes to raise awareness of Lyme in a part of the world where it is rarely recognized and difficult to find treatment. Read on to learn all about Morven-May's fascinating story and where you can buy her book Finding Joy. Tell us a little about who you are and what you do:
I'm from the Highlands of Scotland and I am the author of the novel Finding Joy. I've been ill a long time, so I'm still learning what I can do now my health is improving. There's a lot of trial and error but the discoveries make it worthwhile. What is your Lyme story? How do you think you contracted Lyme and how long did it take you to get a diagnosis? I was a teenager when I contracted Lyme disease and had to drop out of school. I don't remember any one bite in particular, but I remember being bitten as a child. It took around four years before I was diagnosed with Lyme disease. The Doctors were adamant that I could not have Lyme disease because my blood results were negative. When the Doctors couldn't find any cause for my symptoms they decided that I must have ME/CFS. Once this diagnosis was made I was left to fend for myself—I was 18 and by this point, I was housebound and increasingly bed bound. We began hearing about people in our area who had been diagnosed with ME/CFS, and then later diagnosed with Lyme disease. My mum did a huge amount of research and found a frightening amount of correlation between my symptoms and those for Lyme disease. I was very lucky because at the time I could not have done the research needed to discover what was wrong with me. My mum managed to find a private hospital where I was diagnosed with Lyme disease and co-infections. It was quite extraordinary getting the private blood results back, which proves I have Lyme, after being told so forcefully that I couldn't have it by the hospitals. For the past six years, I have been undergoing intensive treatment and in the past year, there has been significant improvement in my health. I hope it continues but in case it doesn't, I intend to live as much as I can. You're about to publish your debut novel about Lyme disease this summer. Tell us about the writing process and about the book: I have to admit that my writing process is a bit chaotic. I seem to get my ideas at the most inconvenient times, so I tend to grab the closest thing to me and quickly write it down before I forget. I have lots of bits of paper, receipts and opened envelopes full of scribbles. Then I sit down with a big cup of tea and just write—my bits of paper often scattered around me in an unorganized mess. Since having Lyme, my concentration has been very poor but when I write the world slips away and time just disappears—I'm completely absorbed by it. What is the one thing that you have found most helpful in treatment? I think the thing I find most useful in the treatment and recovery stage has actually been protein shakes. When I was really unwell, I used to take one after having a shower because the exertion was so huge and I found it really helped with the physical exhaustion. Now I'm doing better, I take them after I've been for a walk. I've found that they really make a difference. What do you want people to know about Lyme disease? I really want people to know the truth about what living with Lyme is like. My book is, I hope, an honest account of a life with Lyme. The story is told from three different points of view because I felt, given the huge effect this illness has had on my family and friends, that their story needed to be told too. Although the book is about what it's like to live with Lyme, I hope to use it to raise awareness about Lyme disease. If you could take away one symptom, which symptom would you take away and why? That’s a really difficult one...there's sadly so many to choose from. What are you most grateful for in your healing journey? That one's easy...my family and my friends are what I am most grateful for. Writing my book has only reaffirmed to me how lucky I am to have them by my side and how truly extraordinary they are. What changes do you still feel you need to make in order to heal? I should probably drink less tea. Is there a person who inspires you in the Lyme community? Bada UK was a great charity who helped a lot of people, sadly they're no longer running. Please share a mantra or quote that inspires you: "The secret to happiness is freedom...And the secret to freedom is courage." - Thucydides You can find Morven here: Website – www.morven-may.co.uk Twitter – @Morven-May Facebook – @morvenmay "The whole of life is about another chance, and while we are alive, till the very end, there is always another chance." - Jeanette Winterson Susan Pogorzelski is one of the most articulate writers about chronic illness I've come across. It's clear why writing is her chosen career. In this interview she elegantly puts into words the way many Lyme patients feel, but don't know how to express. Like many of us, Susan was infected with Lyme in her youth and then searched for answers for many years. Despite her long, difficult battle she remains positive and hopeful. Tell us a little about who you are and what you do:
Thanks for having me here, Kerry. To tell you a little about myself, I'm an author, editor, and creative coach for my small business, Brown Beagle Books. My latest novel, The Last Letter, was released in September and is based on my own experiences with Lyme disease. I'm also a passionate Lyme advocate and contribute regularly to The Mighty and Global Lyme Alliance blogs. What is your Lyme story? How do you think you contracted Lyme and how long did it take you to get a diagnosis? We can trace the beginning of my health problems back to a middle school camping trip, after which I came down with what we believed was mono. After that, I was never really the same, as year after year I seemed to have a new symptom crop up and then resolve itself. One year, I had trouble breathing, which we now attribute to air hunger. Another year, I had OCD tendencies. Finally, in high school, I had severe panic attacks. Eventually, my doctors diagnosed me with Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, as fatigue was the one symptom that remained with me after all this time. Then, when I was in my late twenties, I began having severe abdominal pain. After dozens of doctor visits and tests, they removed an infected gallbladder. I thought that was the end of my health issues. For about a month, I felt great. But then I started to experience strange new symptoms, and my health declined rapidly. I developed Neurally Mediated Hypotension, migraines, neuropathy, severe neurological and psychological issues such as trouble reading and writing, balance issues, and derealization. I was in so much pain, it was difficult to walk. I was so fatigued, I couldn't lift my head from the pillow for more than minutes at a time. Unfortunately, the rest of my story is all-too familiar to Lyme patients. I saw specialist after specialist, had test after test, but there weren't any answers. Finally, in May of 2012--six months after my gallbladder surgery and fifteen years after that camping trip--I found my LLMD who would diagnose and treat me and in every way save my life. I've been in treatment for five years now, after a brief period of remission in 2014. I'm hopeful that since I reached remission once, I'll be able to reach it again. At least, that's what I'm fighting for now. In honor of Lyme Disease Awareness Month, what do you want people to know about Lyme disease? Lyme is such a lonely and isolating experience, particularly when we're first diagnosed. Not only do patients have to contend with the pain from their physical symptoms, but they're trying to survive a very real, very devastating illness that the medical community continuously denies. What makes it worse is that this disease is still so wildly misunderstood because of this denial. What I want people to be aware of is that the effects of Lyme disease go beyond the physical symptoms. It can completely change a life, which makes recovery that much more of a challenge. For those who do have Lyme, I hope they know they're not alone in these struggles, that there are people fighting for them and with them. For those who don't have Lyme, I hope they're able to understand what the Lyme experience is really like so that they can grow their compassion. What are your passions? Writing has always been my first and forever passion. What's made this illness particularly frustrating is that there have been so many times when I've wanted to write, but I've been unable to do so because of severe neurological dysfunction. However, I'm grateful that I'm able to use my writing now to raise awareness, share our stories, and help others. What was your lowest point and how did you find your way out of it? Oh, boy. My low point. I've had many, as this disease has been a near-constant roller coaster of few highs and a lot of lows. One low in particular was right around the time of my relapse. It had taken me two and a half years to reach remission, and I was so eager to be well again and have my life back, I ignored the warning signs and familiar symptoms. My psychological symptoms caused by the co-infections were in full-swing at this point. I didn't think I was going to survive treatment again, and there was a part of me that wasn't sure if I wanted to. But I sought help--first from my family, then from my friends, and then from the Lyme community, who offered me their strength when I felt like I didn't have any left. It's been two years now, and while some days are harder than others, I'm slowly getting better again. Now I cling to hope with everything I've got. What is the one thing that you have found most helpful in treatment? It took a couple of months when I was first diagnosed to find an antibiotic cocktail that would work for me, and though it took a long time, it led me into remission. With this relapse, we tried a number of different combinations, but knowing how the first worked so well for me in the beginning, I was pretty insistent with my doctors that we try it again. Luckily, they were willing to work with me, and I've been seeing steady improvements since. So I would say be willing to speak up with regard to your care--you know yourself and how your body responds better than anyone, so don't be afraid to take control of your own health. Also, Epsom salt baths for the muscle pain are lifesavers. Light exercise in the pool is also tremendously helpful because of the buoyancy. Once I figured out I could move in the pool with little pain, it was like I came alive again--just don’t overdo it. If you could take away one symptom, which symptom would you take away and why? The fatigue is and always will be my worst symptom. The pain has been excruciating, the psychological symptoms frightening, and the neurological issues frustrating, but the fatigue makes me feel like I'm living a half-life, and there are times when that becomes almost unbearable for how much I'm missing out. I've learned to accept and even live with this fatigue after two decades, but it's still the one I most often wish away. What are you most grateful for in your healing journey? The Lyme community. This community is made up of some of the kindest, bravest, and strongest souls I've ever had the privilege of meeting. While I hate that we've had to meet due to such a miserable, shared experience, I'm grateful for the friendships that have formed because they truly enrich my life. There really is nothing like finding someone who understands you, especially when it comes to this disease. Do you have any advice for the newly diagnosed? Don't give up. I know it sounds so cliché, but this journey is a long one, and so having the resolve to reach remission--which is more than possible--is prudent. I know there are times when we feel weak, wondering when that change might come, but please remember that you're so much stronger than you feel right now. Stay strong. Be brave. And when you don't feel strong or brave, reach out to this community. We'll be strong for you. What would your perfect day look like? My perfect day looks a little different now that I have Lyme. Once upon a time, I would have said my perfect day consisted of strolling along the Seine in Paris, reading books and eating French pastries. Actually, that's a pretty great dream, so I think I'll keep that one tucked in my pocket. But now my perfect day is the one I had yesterday--the sun was shining, and everything felt so fresh and new and alive because it's spring now. I had more energy than I’ve had in months, so I took my dogs for a short walk, then sat on the porch swing and listened to some music. It was perfect because for a little while, I wasn't tired or in pain, but rather at peace. Peaceful days are my new perfect day. Please share a mantra or quote that inspires you: From Sarah Williams' poem, "The Old Astronomer To His Pupil" from the book Twilight Hours, a Legacy of Verse: "Though my soul may set in darkness, it will rise in perfect light; I have loved the stars too fondly to be fearful of the night." Find Susan at the following links: Websites: www.lymebravefoundation.org / www.susanpogorzelski.com Twitter: @LymeBrave Instagram: @LymeBrave Facebook: Lyme Brave Foundation Amazon: The Last Letter: A Novel "Your purpose in life is to find your purpose and give your whole heart and soul to it." - Gautama Buddha You know Christina as the Lady of Lyme. She writes a well-known blog in the Lyme community and is a tireless advocate for Lyme patients everywhere. That's why I asked Christina to participate in "The Lyme Interview" during Lyme Disease Awareness Month. Her story is similar to many in that she was misdiagnosed for many years before an eventual Lyme diagnosis. In spite of everything she has gone through on her Lyme journey, her positive voice shines through on her blog and in this interview. Make sure you visit Lady of Lyme and follow Christina on Twitter where she likes to hang out and interact. Tell us a little about your blog and who you are:
Hi everyone. My name is Christina Kovacs and I am the creator of the blog Lady of Lyme. I'm from Kentucky and I blog about the ups and downs of my journey healing from Lyme disease, as well as, sharing research and resources with others. I like to think of my blog and my twitter as a little community, because it's very much a give and take. I learn so much from others, and vice versa. What is your Lyme story? How do you think you contracted Lyme and how long did it take you to get a diagnosis? I live in Kentucky and prior to getting diagnosed I had absolutely no idea what Lyme disease was, nor was I aware of the danger of ticks and the need to be protected when spending time outdoors. It was 2006 and I was playing flashlight tag in a wooded area the summer before I went to college. The next day I woke up and came down with what Doctors called a "summer flu." I was sick for an entire month completely bed bound, and I remember thinking this can't be normal. I was eventually given some antibiotics that helped (not the right kind or enough for Lyme), and that seemed to get me well enough to go off to college, but I never felt the same. The fatigue lingered and body pain lingered, and more and more new symptoms began to pile on. Looking back I can definitely say that summer night in 2006 is when I contracted Lyme Disease. As with most Lyme stories I got more ill as the months and years passed while searching for answers, and for me it took 5 years to receive a diagnosis. What are your passions? Oh goodness, I feel like I have so many. I was in school at FIDM (Fashion Institute of Design and Merchandising) working on my second degree when Lyme disease finally caught up with me to a point where I could no longer function. I had to quit school just 2 credits shy of graduating and move home for treatment. Design and the world of fashion have always been a passion of mine because of the ability to create. From a very young age I would seek out local seamstresses to custom make clothing for me that I had dreamt up in my mind. I really enjoy crafting, reading mystery novels, and watching crime solving shows (I am a murder mystery fanatic) and a huge animal lover. I've volunteered at rescues in the past, and hope to do that again when I am well enough. I would love to rescue, adopt, and save every homeless dog if I could. And lastly and most importantly my greatest passion lies in God. My faith has been everything to me, and it's what has carried me though my highest and lowest moments. What was your lowest point and how did you find your way out of it? Hands down my lowest point was when I relapsed. After fighting through treatment for about 3 years and seeing glimpses of my health coming back, it all came crashing down around me. It felt like it happened in slow motion. I was desperately trying to stop it, but I couldn't. The relapse brought new symptoms, some of which were impossible to control. It also brought along depression (which prior to that I had never dealt with). It hit me hard, and that was definitely my low point. It was a long road, but I got out of it with the support of my family, with my pastor coming to my home for bible studies by my bedside, and with Doctors helping to stabilize me and give me a sense of hope that the downward spiral was slowly coming to a halt. It took baby steps, but I began to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I would say the key and saving grace was that the people around me carried my hope for me when I was out of steam. I absolutely did not know how I would recover, but I was surrounded by my family and my faith which sustained me. In honor of Lyme Disease Awareness Month, what do you want people to know about Lyme disease? That it's not named after the fruit. Haha, just kidding. I do get that question a lot and I always chuckle. But in all seriousness I would want people to know that Lyme Disease is completely preventable if you just take precautions and learn to recognize the symptoms. I wish I knew in 2006 what I knew now, and that I had even 1 person educate me about prevention and early intervention. This disease is something that can be caught early before it causes mass body wide damage, and having the facts can change the course of someone's life. What are you most grateful for in your healing journey? The people I have met. I have met some of the most incredible and kind human beings on this journey who I feel so lucky to call my friends. Their strength astounds me and their authentic friendships remind me what it's like to have people in my corner who I can always count on. What changes do you still feel you need to make in order to heal? If I had to pick one thing, I would simplify it and just say physical therapy. PT in every different format; from visual PT needed to repair brain damage, to physical PT for my body which has been primarily in bed for years on end. There is a lot of healing and re-learning to do for parts of my body which were damaged and affected by Lyme disease. Do you have a role model in the Lyme community? Who and why? Katina Makris. When I was first diagnosed in 2011 I was absolutely terrified and overwhelmed. I had made the mistake of Googling Lyme Disease and was under the impression that I may never be well again. I tried searching for others online who recovered and kept coming up empty. That's when the mother of my boyfriend gave me the book, Out of the Woods by Katina Makris. That book completely changed my life. It was the most honest, hopeful, raw journey, which took me into the depths of the hell Katina fought through. It showed the struggle, but it also showed how she came out of it on the other side stronger than ever. She recovered and wrote the book many years after she was well, so I also got to read about how much richer and fuller her life was after she survived the fight of Lyme disease. That book is what gave me hope to begin treatment, and it gave me the fuel to say, "I can do this and I refuse to back down." If Katina could survive all that she went through, then so could I. She was my first role model, and still continues to be as I see her living her best health life 10+ years post Lyme. She is a huge inspiration through and through. Please share a mantra or quote that inspires you: "But God knows the path that I will take; when he has tried me I shall come out as pure as gold." - Job 23:10 "The purpose of life, after all, is to love it, to taste experience to the utmost, to reach out eagerly and without fear for newer and richer experience." - Eleanor Roosevelt |
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